Organization, How I Love Thee

Its so much fun getting organized and finding "a place for everything and everything in its place". Especially when I don't have to put much brain power into it! Let me back up a little to share a fun story. Fun for me, anyway... maybe fun for you, too, if you like stories about organizing. ;-)

We use Math-U-See for the boys' math curriculum. We love it! But there's always been an issue of how to store their manipulative blocks. Now, Math-U-See does offer a beautifully segmented wooden block holder just for this purpose... but its a little...well, pricey for me. So this is how we have been storing our blocks up until today:

Contained well, but perhaps not very aesthetically organized, as well as causing alot of digging around and dumping of blocks when they are in use.

But then, this blog post changed all of that. Do you see the beautiful compartments? Do you see how delightfully portable it is? The little labels, marking a spot for everything? And everything in its place? I was instantly in love!

So I went online to The Container Store and found the fun little box. This is where it gets even better! There is a Container Store in downtown Atlanta, about 25 miles from me. However, I am a little intimidated to go, for several reasons. One, I might be tempted beyond what I could bear if I actually dared to go into that store. Really. My husband actually came close to forbidding me to go. I like containers, um... a little. Two, trying to drive downtown with all of the boys and find my way there was a very scary thought for me. I stick to happy suburban roads and try to avoid city life as much as possible.

However, my wonderfully sweet friend Callie said she'd be more than happy to go for me to pick up the box, as she lives a bit closer, is more comfortable with city traffic, and has no little ones to have to worry about.

Then, I noticed that The Container Store has this cool option on their website, called "Click and Pick Up". I was able to order the box, pay for it online, and they had it set aside waiting for Callie when she got there. Wow! It was so easy it was unbelievable! She then gave me the box when I saw her at church, and now....

Do you see the beautiful compartments? Do you see how delightfully portable it is? The little labels, marking a spot for everything? And everything in its place? I AM in love!

Thank you so much to Callie and the wonderful blogger from Satori Smiles for the help and inspiration! Even if nothing else in my upcoming school room is organized, I can be happy because at least our math blocks are! :-D Every little bit counts, right?

A Song and a Scripture for Saturday

I love this song. My favorite verse is:

And we are His portion and He is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If His grace is an ocean, we're all sinking

I could drown in the vastness of His grace that He has extended to me! Its a glorious thing to meditate on His love and sacrifice, especially knowing what and where I was before I knew His love.

We have come to know and have believed the love which God has for us.
God is love, and the one who abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.
By this, love is perfected with us, so that we may have confidence in the day of judgment; because as He is, so also are we in this world.

We love, because He first loved us.

1 John 4:16-17, 19
(1 John 4:16 is engraved on the inside of our wedding rings)

He is jealous for me
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy

When all of a sudden
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
And I realize just how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are for me

Oh, how He loves us so
Oh, how He loves us
How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves

And we are His portion and He is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If His grace is an ocean, we're all sinking

And heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets
When I think about the way...

Teaching Littles to Read

Literacy is extremely important. I believe knowing how to read opens the way for so much learning - self guided, exciting, exploratory learning. Once one can read, the world is virtually endless for what can be learned. I've always been a bookworm myself, devouring books faster than chocolate (yes, it is possible!).

That being said, I am amazed at the number of extensive curricula available for teaching a child to read. Obviously, this is a challenge that most parents take seriously, especially homeschooling parents (many non-homeschoolers depend on the public school to do this task, but hopefully encourage at home as well). The thing that really shocks me, though, is the price of so many of these curricula! I've seen kits that are over a hundred dollars, sometimes several hundred dollars! That can be very overwhelming to a new homeschooler (or any new parent wanting to take on teaching their child to read) - and each one seems so promising - your child will surely fail at reading forever if you don't use theirs!

But I wanted to offer reassurance. It IS possible to teach your child to read and love reading, with very little (if any) cost. What's the first step? Read to them! Daily, if not several times a day! From the time they are tiny, cuddle them in your lap and explore the beauty of books. Let them turn pages, even if you're not done reading one yet. Let them ask questions, talk about the pictures. Make reading time a special, wonder-filled time! Read them their favorite, over and over and over again.

By the time Isaac was 9 months old, he would army crawl over to the small bookshelf in his room, and pull out "Goodnight Moon" from among the other books on his shelf. We read that book everytime we sat down to read - I still know it by heart! My parents purposely bought me the book "The Baby Beebee Bird" when I began having children, as revenge for the sheer of times I requested they read it to me when I was young (if you've ever read it, you'll understand why it was a form of revenge!).

Second, one small purchase I made to use with the boys is a book called "Teach Your Child to Read in 100 Easy Lessons". It cost me $29 and is reusable, so by the time Judah learns to read, it will have cost me only $6 per child for their reading curriculum.

This book is amazing! First, let me say it does NOT have bright colors, silly games, fun music, and interesting illustrations - everything that something to teach younger children with is supposedly "supposed" to have. It is a very dry book in that way. But it disproves the theory that kids need entertainment to learn! It is incredibly effective, and each time I go through it, I think "Wow! What a great method!"

Each lesson takes about 15-25 minutes, depending on if you do the handwriting section, too. The books quickly teaches the child to read c-v-c words, which excites them and motivates them to continue on to learn more. Its a small time investment with a big payoff. By the end of the book, they are reading full stories and ready for short books! And there's no rush - you can do one lesson a day, three lessons a day, or one or two lessons a week. Its very easy to take at your child's pace without causing frustration or discouragement.

Also, keep in mind that every child really is different when it comes to the pace at which they learn to read. Just with my first two experiences, I discovered that doing something at the child's pace is much more effective than trying to force them too soon or too fast. Reading is something that "clicks" at the right time - for some children that time is early - age 3 or 4! For others, its later - not until 7 or 8, or even later. One of the wonderful blessings of homeschooling is to be able to go at that individual pace, instead of them being forced into a "mold" in which labels such as "geek" or "learning disabled" can quickly be placed upon anyone who doesn't fit the mold imposed by public school standards.

I wanted to encourage any parents who are about to be (or are in the middle of) teaching your little ones to read - you don't need some huge, fancy, expensive curriculum! And don't be discouraged if your child is not moving along as fast as you might think they need to - with patient, gentle teaching, and exposure to lots of wonderful books and time spent sharing them with you - it will happen! And then watch out - a whole new wonderful world awaits!!

Wordless Wednesday - On my Refrigerator

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Chore Assignments

As promised in my previous post where I described our chore system, here are my and the boys' chore assignments. Now, writing this all out might make it look like a lot of stuff... and there is a lot. But we do have a large household, and Michael and I believe its important for every member to be contributing as soon as they can begin learning how to.

We've noticed with our boys that this has brought about several things. First, they're more appreciative of the house and the work that has to be done in it, since they are involved directly. Second, chores give them a sense of accomplishment and contribution, which is important for children to develop - they need to know that they are useful and can do work that is effective and helpful to others. It also teaches them that the world doesn't revolve around them, and that serving others is a blessing to those they are serving and to they themselves.

We feel its important for the boys to learn to rise up to meet the challenges of day to day work, as, eventually, they will be providing for a wife and family of their own, we pray. We don't want them to think of work as drudgery or something to avoid, but to understand that it is a necessity to life, and a big aspect in maturing into a man.

So here's their chore lists, broken down for simplicity, hopefully ;-)

Isaac (age 8.5):
Daily Chores:

Before Breakfast:

• Make Bed
• Brush Teeth
• Pray/Devotion
• Pick up personal belongings in room

After Breakfast:

• Clean Toilet area of bathroom (wipe seat and under seat with bleach wipe, scrub inside of toilet with brush)
• Dogs Out
• Empty glass dishes from dishwasher

Afternoon:

• Zone (his zone is the kitchen, so he sweeps, wipes table, and washes pots and pans)
• Fold and put away laundry, if needed
  
• Brush Molly (the hairy Lab)
• Vacuum Judah's room

Before Bed:

• Wash pots and pans from dinner
• Teeth
• PJs on

Weekly:

• Match mismatched socks
• Clean Trash out of Car
• Sweep Deck
• Straighten Bookshelves
• Take Sheets off Bed, Replace with clean ones
• Vacuum Stairs to Basement
• Clean Basement
• Sweep Garage
• Wipe Kitchen Floor

Ezra (age 7):
Daily:

Before Breakfast:

• Brush Teeth
• Make Bed
• Pray/Devotions
• Pick up personal belongings in room
• Serve Emergen-C to everyone
  

After Breakfast:

• Load dishwasher
• Start laundry if needed
• Trash out if needed
• Sink area of bathroom (wipe sinks and counters, change hand towel, shake out rug)

Afternoon:

• Zone (his zone is the front of the house - entryway, living room, office - he has to pick up items from those rooms and sweep the entryway)
• Clean and vacuum room
• Fold and put away laundry if needed
  
• Load Dishwasher
• Trash out if needed
  

After Dinner:

• Load Dinner dishes into dishwasher
• PJs
• Teeth

Weekly:

• Sweep front porch and sidewalk
• Pick up front yard
• Take trash can and recycle bin to curb on trash day
• Bring trash can and recycle bin back to house after trash day
• Pick up back yard
• Take sheets off bed and replace with clean ones
• Clean "stuff" out of car (non trash items that belong in house)
• Clean basement
• Wipe Kitchen Floor

Joel (age 4.5):

Before Breakfast:

• Teeth
• Make bed
• Pick up personal belongings in room
• Pray
• Feed Dogs and give water

After breakfast:

• Unload silverware from dishwasher
• Bring dirty laundry to laundry room
• Replace trash bag if needed
  

Afternoon:

• Zone (his zone is the family room, so he tidies this)
• Fold and put laundry away if needed
  
• Empty trash cans around the house into kitchen trash
• Replace trash bag if needed
  

After Dinner:

• Teeth
• PJs on

Joel doesn't have many weekly chores, yet, but he does help clean the basement and wipe the kitchen floor. He also helps with anything I ask him to :-)

Nathan (age 2.5) doesn't have a "chore list" yet. Every morning he is responsible for unloading the plastic dishes from the dishwasher. The rest of the day, he helps me in anything I'm doing that I can modify for his level. They all start out as "mommy's apprentice" until I can see that they're ready to do more things independently.

Oh, and before anyone thinks I sit around eating Bon-Bons while my children slave away, here's my chore list:

Before breakfast:

• Exercise
• Shower
• Quiet time with Lord
• Prepare breakfast

After breakfast:

• Help Nathan get dressed and change his diaper (or, since last week, help him sit on the potty!)
• Start my laundry, if the boys don't have laundry to do that day
• Check chores

Afternoon:

• Motivated Moms list
• Sweep the house (we have hardwood everywhere except the stairs, basement, and bedrooms)
• Vacuum either the living room rug, master bedroom, or basement (they rotate, and yes, I have a list of which day I do what, naturally! :-P Or else I'd forget entirely!)
• Fold and put away my laundry if needed
• Check chores

Before bed:

• Check that the dishwasher is loaded well and start it
• Wipe down the kitchen counters and sink
• Make Michael's lunch for the next day
• Get my exercise clothes ready for the morning
• Do a brief bit of Bible study

One thing I want to incorporate into the older boy's list is learning how to plan a meal to cook, make the grocery list for that meal, and then prepare it. I figure if I can do that with each boy as they get older, by the time Judah is 10, I'll only have 2 meals a week to plan and prepare, lol! They love helping with the cooking whenever they can.

So, there's a run down of our day! The before breakfast, after breakfast, and after dinner chores take about 15 minutes or less each. The biggest chunk of chores is in the afternoon, which take an hour or so for me and the two oldest boys. We try to always keep this in mind as we go about our daily work:

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.
Colossians 3:23

Our Chore System

My friend Manda asked a couple of questions about my chores, so I thought I would go ahead and elaborate. One of my goals over this summer was to streamline our chore process, because every day was a bigger-than-I-preferred ordeal. So I spent alot of time looking at what other larger families put into place for their chores. I liked the look of "Accountable Kids" but that wasn't in our budget. I also liked the idea of "Chore Packs", but the frugal side of me also thought I might be able to come up with something along those lines without spending too much money (although I do wish I had the Managers of their Chores book for some more ideas, I really appreciate the Maxwells' materials).

So, after much brainstorming, I came up with "our own thing". And its been working wonderfully! Here's what I did. I got index card boxes, colored index cards, white index cards, and adhesive tab labels. It cost about $10, I think. For us, we have chores that are done daily and also chores that are done weekly. Our daily chores are broken down into several portions of the day - before breakfast, after breakfast, afternoon, and after dinner. The weekly chores are done in the afternoon, as well.

So, I color coded the daily portions - before breakfast is on pink cards, after breakfast is on orange, afternoon on yellow, and after dinner on green, and they are all sorted in the front of the index card box. Weekly chores are on white cards, and are behind the daily chores, divided up by cards that have the adhesive file tabs on them with each day of the week listed. Confused yet?! Its much easier visually than for me to explain it, so here's some examples:


You can see the different color daily cards in this picture:

The weekly chore dividers:


On the front of each card is the name of the chore, and on the back are any specific instructions - to help those who don't remember easily, and also to help Michael to check that things are done correctly if I am not available. I also write the day or time of day on the bottom of the cards, in case of a chore box spill, which has happened more than once ;-)

The two oldest boys use this system, and it makes chore time really "hands-off" for me. We used to have a chart, but it was hard for them to read, and they always asked me 101 questions about each chore. Or it seemed that way, anyway. Now they know what to do, when to do it, and how it should be done. I just have to tell them its chore time, and they're off and running! Joel (who is 4.5) needed something more visual, since he is not reading yet. So he has a visual chore list posted on our bulletin board:


Also, I found that while this made the "what" of the chore process easier, it didn't help with the other issues that would arise - distraction, dawdling, and the occasional grumbling. So we have a reward chart to go along with the system. For each portion of chores done with good attitudes, good effort, and staying on task, they get a star on the chart. If any of the above issues pop up (I have to remind them to get back to work too many times, I find them playing instead of working, arguing instead of working, or a job left completely undone), they get a red "x" on their chart.

On Fridays nights after our Sabbath meal, we hand out allowance. For every star, the big boys earn 10 cents, and Joel earns 5 cents. However, for every "x", they have to give us back a dime or a nickle. If they've been able to go all week without any "x"s, they get a bonus of 25 cents. The child with the most stars for the week also earns a bonus 25 cents.

Adding this reward system has done wonders for helping people stay on task and grumble less! I've been amazed! Joel has won both bonuses two week in a row, and he used to be the hardest one to motivate to stay on task and do all his work.

Since it has worked so well for chores, I've also decided to do the same for behavior issues. Any initiative that is taken to do above and beyond their assigned chores, without being asked, can earn them a bonus star. On the same hand, excessive bickering, disobedience, or bad attitudes can earn an extra "x". This has come in handing for the more "tricky" issues of discipline that aren't serious enough for a major consequence, but that I have been frustrated by having to repeat all the time. (For example, door slamming - we've practiced how to shut doors quietly, but doors still slam all the time around here. While its not a deliberate disobedience, it is carelessness and a disregard for a rule. So to make them more aware, I've been passing out "x"s for door slamming... and the slamming has diminished significantly!) These extra stars or "x"s go in the corner of the chart - here's an example:


I know the issue of childrens' allowance can be controversial, but we decided to do it for several reasons. One, it helps them to learn how to manage their money. Second, they all have very generous spirits and want to buy gifts for others, and are sad when they can't. I like to encourage their generosity by granting them the ability to give to others out of their own earnings. Third, there are often little extra chores here and there that they do for me without any compensation, so they are not getting caught up in the mindset of "I'll only do it if I get something out of it".

To see how our house stays orderly even with 5 rambunctious boys in it, check out my Chore Assignments post!

Fitness Friday Update

There hasn't been an "official" Fitness Friday in a while - our usual host, Brenda, actually has a life outside of blogging, go figure! ;-) But I thought I'd do a little update just for fun. I've been doing some strength training videos off and on for a while, but not really feeling or seeing any results. Then, I got a little DVD called "The 30-Day Shred". I had to wait two months for it from the library, I was 34th in line on the reservation list. And let me tell you - there's a reason why so many people want it. It is serious stuff!

The instructor is Jillian Michaels, best known, apparently, for her work on the show "The Biggest Loser", but I don't watch TV, so I didn't know. But I now know that she is seriously TOUGH. I'm only on the 1st Level (there are 3) and it really works me out. I pant, grunt, groan, and go so far as to argue with the TV and wonder outloud why I get myself out of bed at 6 am just to be tortured. Afterwards, I take my shaky, weak-kneed self up the stairs and continue to try to catch my breath through my shower and try not to collapse.

Michael wanted to see what all my hype was about and tried it with me. And he had the same reaction. He couldn't believe how hard it was, and he's a decently fit guy (he recently ran the Peachtree Road Race - 10K - without ANY prior workouts. Fit, right? Or crazy.).

But you know what? I LOVE it! I love feeling muscles I didn't know I had, I love seeing how it actually is getting easier each time I do it. I love knowing that it is doing SOMETHING! Which is why I torture myself every morning at 6 am, dragging myself out of bed to do push-ups, jumping jacks, squats, lunges, crunches... I know the results will be worth it. I can't wait to feel strong and fit again! I'm already feeling stronger and more fit!

You know, its vain, but my 30th birthday is coming up this year... and I don't want to be a frumpy, overweight, out of shape, 30 year old, tired out with 5 kids. I want to be a young, energetic, fit 30 year old, keeping up with 5 kids! Slowly but surely, I think I will be able to accomplish that goal.

Still Growing!

Judah is 5 months now! He's such a chubby little bundle of smiles - everyone adores him, especially his mama! :-D



One of his new favorite pastimes is playing with his feet and chewing on his toes!


He also made his first trip to the beach in St. Augustine, Florida. I had to work hard to keep him from getting too much sun!


Oh, and his Daddy likes him a little bit, too ;-)

Its Almost Time...

Remember back when I said we were taking a month off of homeschooling for a summer break? Well... a month has turned into an entire summer in the blink of an eye! I've decided that we'll be starting back up with full time homeschooling after Labor Day (remember those old days when Public School used to do that?).

In preparation, I've been busy finalizing our schedule, and I'm excited to say its complete! Our week has some variations - Wednesdays we go for a Nature Walk, and Fridays we go to the Library and don't do as much "academics" but have Art and leave time open for things like cooking, extra projects and other things that might pop up. Here's a preview of each day (M/T/Th, Wed, Fri):



If you want to see it in "real time", you can check it out on Google Docs here!

A few notes about it, however. First, Judah is not really on a tight schedule like this. I just fit in the average day with him (nursing every 2-3 hours, napping every 2 hours or so) just to see how everything else would fall in to place around it. Thankfully, nursing is easily mobile, and he naps well in my Ergo, so even if we're on the go during a time to eat or sleep, he'll be just fine!

Also, I'm not strict about the times. Actually, the only thing that really happens on time is my wake-up (ummm... most days...) breakfast, lunch, and (sometimes) dinner. Everything else flows as best it can, and we roll with whatever each day holds in store for us. Again, the times are just a basic guideline to make sure I'm able to fit in what Michael and I have decided to be important.

It feels good to have a plan for how I'd like our days to flow, and also know I'll be able to fit in all of my priorities, plus a few extra!

Another thing I've gotten in place for our year is Activity Bags for the Littles. I organized a swap with some other awesome homeschooling mamas and now have a nice collection of fun, educational activities for Joel and Nathan to do independently, or with the help of an older sibling! They're really excited about them, as am I!

In doing the Activity Bag swap, I came across a website they recommend, and am in looove! Discount School Supplies has things I've always wanted, but didn't know where to get, as well as things I've never thought of but now am sure I can't live without, lol! Where has this been all my life?! ;-) Its nice to find a resource for bulk school items at a good price. Hooray!

One final exciting preparation is that Michael and I have agreed to change our basement into the homeschool area. Its going to have couches and bookshelves for all the reading we do, a table for seatwork, a preschool area, and an arts and crafts area. The computer will be moved down there as well. The best part? The only thing I'll have to spend money on is a few lamps (right now the lighting is hideous, buzzing fluorescent lights)! I was inspired by so many of the pictures from the "Not-Back-to-School" Blog Hop on Homeschool rooms and got creative in my thinking. I've been so worried about storage space and then the thought came to me - I have an entire set of kitchen cabinets in my garage! Those can be set up just in the basement for some free, functional, and decent looking storage! Another hooray! Once I get things set up, I'll be sure to post pictures. It will be a process and I doubt it will be all the way finished before we're ready to start, but I'm excited about the challenge!

Phew! See what happens when I don't blog as frequently? I've got alot to say when I finally come back! We're excited to get started on our new year!!!

Wordless Wednesday - 7!

From this...

To this!

Happy Birthday Ezra!!

July's Treasures

Important Things for Mothers at Generation Cedar

An Inconvenient Life at Lambs in His Arms

Top 5 Reasons Not to Send Your Kids Back to a Government School at Truth in Love Blog

I Not You... Then Who? at A Wise Woman Builds Her Home - part of The Christian Mother Series - there are many other excellent posts in the series!

Tips for Maintaining a Simple Home at Passionate Homemaking

The Me Time Myth at Raising Arrows - a MUST read!

The Visionary Foundation - Teaching Our Children to Love God's Law at At the Well...In Pursuit of Titus 2

Going Crazy and Want to Go Back to Work? at Pursuing Titus 2 - this one is very true, and also pretty funny!

Take my Life at Generation Cedar

How to Make Sure your Children Resent You and Reject Everything you Believe, in Three Easy Steps at Pursuing Titus 2

Love is Spelled R-E-S-P-E-C-T at Heart(h) Management

Living and Speaking the Truth in Love at Your Sacred Calling

I'm No Super Mom at insidecatholic.com - YES!! Perfectly said - a "rule breaker" - but so worth it!

Sea Glass at Que Sera Sera - a beautiful treasure from my sister

What is a Home? at At the Well... Pursuing Titus 2

How to be Missionally Minded at Take Your Vitamin Z

A Song for Saturday

I've heard this song a bunch of times, but the other day while I was driving, it really hit a chord with me. I had been reading another blog about a daughter that had gone on a mission's trip to Africa, and starting thinking about how it would be a really neat experience to take our family on a mission trip. Getting to see other cultures outside of our own, being the "hands and feet" of Jesus - what a great experience for all of us!

And then I realized... I don't even know half the neighbors on my street! Why haven't I reached out to them, invited them over for a meal, shared the love of Christ with them? How can I dream of going somewhere for the Lord when I'm not even serving him here?! Now, I still definitely believe that foreign missions are valuable and would be an incredible opportunity for my family - but it definitely opened my eyes to the mission field that I'm already in.

After having that realization, I heard this song about 3 times in a row (I'm always flipping between several Christian radio stations), and it was suddenly so true. So I wanted to share!

Looked down from a broken sky
Traced out by the city lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight
Touched down on the cold black top
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breathe in the familiar shock
Of confusion and chaos
All those people going somewhere,
Why have I never cared?

Chorus:
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
Ones that are far beyond my reach.
Give me your heart for the ones forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see
Yeah
Yeah
yeah
yeah

Step out on a busy street
See a girl and our eyes meet
Does her best to smile at me
To hide what's underneath
There's a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie
Too ashamed to tell his wife
He's out of work
He's buying time
All those people going somewhere
Why have I never cared?

Chorus
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
Ones that are far beyond my reach.
Give me your heart for the ones forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see
Yeah
Yeah
yeah
yeah

I've Been there a million times
A couple of million eyes
Just moving past me by
I swear I never thought that I was wrong
Well I want a second glance
So give me a second chance
To see the way you see the people all along

Chorus (x2)
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
Ones that are far beyond my reach.
Give me your heart for the ones forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see
Yeah
Yeah
yeah
yeah